It was a pretty bad week last week and yesterday, but (and this is a big but) my emotions are so on the upswing. I’ve come so far in 3 weeks. Just think, just three short three weeks ago, I was planning day to day. Now I’m planning (w/homework) for the whole week.
But back to what I was originally talking about. As far as delivering the lesson went, it was pretty lousy. I couldn’t seem to get anything across. I don’t know if it was because I was out for those days or if it was because it was raining and the children were just unmotivated, but it just did not come off like I intended.
I appreciate it though. More and more, my blunders are teaching what to do as well as what not to do.
Yesterday, I was so ready to quit. Why? One of my Hispanic students called a black student the n* word yet again. I was too through because I wondered if he thought of me that way too.
I had to be @ school from 4:30- 10:00 @ B.N.U. I just did not want to be there. I only wanted to be at home at bed with the covers over my head. When I got home, I had a migraine so I went to bed right away. I went to sleep thinking how I just did not want to go back to work. How could I bare to go to another day in a job where I simply do not feel appreciated?
The bright spot was when I woke up this morning totally refreshed like nothing happened. The only way that I can account for the change is my prayers right before I went to sleep. Prayer works. Thank you Jesus.
Until next time people!
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