Can you say happy??? Why am I so happy? I’m so happy because last night was my daughter’s last cheer practice. EVER!!! Let me just say that I am not cut out for this cheerleading junk. The little girls are bitchy already & some of the moms are just crazy. So, the culmination of this all is the JAMZ national competition in Vegas today through Sunday. I’m praying for the #1 spot!

I’ll let you know what happens. Bye for now!

That was before I had a pep talk with myself. I had to tell myself that if I wait for the “right” time, I’ll never do it. Although I am not ready, I will continually strive to be the best ME I can be. Why wouldn’t I? or you for that matter?

So, the Principal brings it up & I’m ready for some bull$h^+! Imagine my surprise when she said that the e-mail wasn’t directed at me. She was lying, but I was glad that I did not have to get into a big brouhaha with her and her assistant. I guess they could see that I was ready for a fight. I didn’t want to and definitely wasn’t looking forward to it, but was going to do it if I had to.

You see, I’ve never been an instigator. I don’t start anything, but I will finish something. I’m like a cornered cat. In fact, I am a big cat- I’m a Leo. And you know how a cornered cat comes out clawing & aiming for the jugular. I didn’t want to go for the jugular, but I would have if necessary. Thank goodness it didn’t come to that because I’m changing. Slowly, but surely, I am changing. I know how to handle things next time. Next time I will simply reply, “Ok, I’ll do better” and leave it at that.

I consider this little “thing” as success and a failure. I consider it a success because, hopefully, this will make the Principal & her flunky stop effing with me. It’s a failure because I should have had better control of my emotions. You live and you learn. I can tell you that I definitely learn from this. I guess something good can come out of failure.

So, this is what happened. I organized a field trip for 2nd-6th grade. It was quite unorganized. I lost one of the student’s trip slips, didn’t have all the money in. It was a big fat mess and it was my fault. I had a great time. It was nice. We went to a museum. The students were very excited & the parents had a good time. I even had a nap on the bus on the way home.

I get home, after my nap at home, and see a nasty e-mail from her and her assistant. The tone of the e-mail was pretty nasty. That’s the one thing I don’t like about the Principal. She doesn’t have the balls to directly confront anyone, so she will say it in a group e-mail or the faculty staff meetings.Not only that, but she will send one & her assistant will send one. Overkill. That is what they do. Not surprised or hurt by it, just mentioning it.

So, I thought about the e-mail for a minute, then replied. I accepted total responsibility for the field trip fiasco & questioned the policy that I was being chastised on. What was the policy? When was I notified of the policy? I have no problem following policy or protocol as long as I know about it. I will not knowingly break policy or protocol.

I’m waiting patiently for the staff meeting to bring this up. My title says teacher, not slave. Just because she is my boss, it doesn’t give her the right to treat me like I am less than her. The real problem is that she is getting reamed by her boss. She, of course, doesn’t have the strength to take it, so she figures she will take it out on her underlings. Well, today (or Friday for our staff meeting) is not the day to take frustrations out on underlings, especially not me!

I’ll let you know how things turn out on Friday. Bye for now!

That’s it for now Dear Readers. I’ll write more as I learn more. Bye for now!

I am having a motivation problem with Coaster. Since he is “special” and an only child, his mother allows him to do whatever, and I do mean whatever, he wants. During last month’s PTO meeting, he poured an 8 oz. carton of milk on the floor. Did I mention that his mother just stared at him and did nothing? So, you see what I’m dealing with.

It has always been my philosophy that as long as a child was trying, they would not earn a fail in my classroom because I take many factors into consideration. However, I have about 10 pieces of work, literally, from this student since September. So, he will not be getting a C-, he will get the grades that he’s earned- D’s & F’s, because he is NOT trying too hard.

His mother will claim that she’s going to talk to him, but obviously whatever she’s doing isn’t working. If it was, he wouldn’t be acting the way he is acting. I’m pretty tired of his lack of motivation (That’s pretty PC, isn’t it?) But, I can’t expect to change 9 years worth of lack of motivation in the couple of months that I have him now, can I?

He told me that he didn’t want to do any work. So, one of my tactics is to give the student their wish. I told him that it was okay not to do any work.  “Go ahead and go to the back of the classroom and read your book,” I told him.

“Okay,” he said.

I let him do it for Religion, Science, Social Studies, and Math. By now it’s lunchtime & he is bored out of his skull. Every time he attempted to join the group, I reminded him of his wish. Do you wanna’ guess what happened after lunch??? Well, do ya’? After lunch, he joined the group. That happened yesterday. I was afraid it would have worn off by today. But, nope, he joined and participated in the group today. I guess I’ve gotten through to him. Only time & continued participation will tell.

I guess I’ll entitle this little strategy, Your Wish is My Command strategy! Bye for now.

I really want to be in this program. Don’t quite know if I’m ready, but am willing to take the plunge. Wish me luck!

I will be quite honest. I don’t know if I’m ready for what I’m about to do, but that’s never stopped me before. All of the major things in my life happened when I wasn’t “ready”. I wasn’t ready to become a mom @ 19. I wasn’t ready to have my second one @ 21. The point: I wasn’t ready to do many things in my life, but excelled at them anyway.

So, the “it” that I’m talking about is applying for a job as a Principal at a charter school. I don’t feel that I’m ready. So, I really won’t be that bummed if I don’t get accepted to the program this year. I’m considering this a trial run. It’s just that lately I’ve had this feeling, like fire in my bones. It’s telling me that it’s time to move on; to dream bigger; to do bigger things.

The only reason this even occurred to me was because during my first year of teaching, I was at a training and this woman called me “Ms. Principal lady”.

“I’m not a principal,” I replied.

“You can be if you want to,” she said.

God told me to tell you to go further, to dream bigger. Those weren’t her exact words, but that was the gist of it.

At that time I thought I didn’t want to, but I’ve since changed my mind. I want to! It’s time for me to step out of my comfort zone. It’s time for me to take my rightful place. I’ve found a program that mentors & trains principals for their charter schools for a whole year, and helps you secure employment afterward. So, I am going to take that plunge and do it. Wish me luck.

Not only that, but I had them put the toys away until right before lunch. You see, the toys were distracting too many of the other students, so putting the toys away solved two problems: It stopped the distractions & cleared up space on the back table. Well, I guess it solved three because I only allowed the students to take out the toys 20 minutes before lunch, so the students had to be ready to purchase once they went to the back table. I held them strictly to it with a one minute timer. If they didn’t decide within the minute, then they had to wait until after everyone had purchased. Do you think any students missed the minute mark? If you guessed no, then you would be correct. Everyone made up their minds in one minute or less. So, instead of taking most of the morning to pay the students and let them buy, it only took about 30 minutes total. How’s that for progress?

Now, if only I can be consistent in grading the homework and getting it back to them, that would be sooooooooooo nice!!!

So, that’s when I decided to inventory my stuff. It took a little bit of time since I have about 100 little erasers, but I did it. That way, I know exactly what and how much of any one given thing I have in my classroom store. It keeps me in the know and my students who manage the store honest.

I’ve had nearly two weeks of alternating  laziness & productivity. I didn’t get nearly as much done as I wanted to, but I did get lots and lots of rest. That was my main goal, so I am very, very, very happy. I went up to my classroom today to clean up a little and take down decorations. If I get my van back tomorrow, I am going to go back and sweep the floors and tackle those stacks of papers. I did straighten them  up- a little while ago, actually. So, if I accomplished nothing else, I got those papers straightened up. Just in case you don’t believe me, here’s some pics:

These are before & after pics:

I’d like to wish everyone a Happy New Year! I am really looking forward to what 2012 is going to bring! Here’s to 2012!!!

I’m back. I did not mean to take such a long break, but my life has been so hectic lately. I am really looking forward to Christmas vacation. I have many posts to write. So, bye for now.

This is one of the longest times I’ve gone without posting. I have been in deep thought about my future with my current job. To say that the parents at my current site are high strung is an understatement. My co-workers and I have been dealing with a really tough situation lately. It’s been weighing really heavily on us. So much so, that we’ve decided to have morning prayer sessions as a staff. Although I admit that it shouldn’t have been our last resort, it was. Sometimes, it takes a really tough situation or a tragedy to bring people together. Again, I have to admit that we needed to be stronger as a staff and not have so much in-fighting. Now, we will hopefully be able to do that. I’ll keep you posted. Bye for now!

As of 12:55 p.m. today, I am on mini- vacation. I am so happy that I don’t have to do anything for 4 days. I’m not hosting Thanksgiving this year, so I have tons of free time on my hand. I am going to sleep in tomorrow- probably until 8 a.m., then I’m going over my mother-in-law’s house. I’m going to eat myself silly, then come home and sleep like a baby. So, I will post on the weekend. Bye for now!

I knew that I needed gas, but thought I could put it off, since, you know, I hate stopping at the gas station. Well, since I was right on E, I knew that I wouldn’t even make it to work. So, I had to stop. I get out. It’s freezing, my heater stopped working yesterday for some reason. Not only that, but my blinkers are on the fritz. Even so, I have people at work waiting for me, so I go. At least I tried to. I stop at the local 76, pump my gas and prepare to leave. The only problem is that I somehow managed to waster gas all over my cute self. I hadn’t worn this skirt since earlier in the year. I lost a little weight, so it actually fit pretty good. Anyway, there was no way in H.E. double hockey sticks that I was going in to work smelling like gas. So, I went home. At this point it was already 7:25. Once I would have taken a bath and put on another outfit, there was no way I was getting out of the house before 8:00.

“What’s the point,” I thought. Screw it! I’m getting back in bed. So, that’s what I did. I got back in bed. I woke up about 12:30. I got some well deserved rest. That’s it. That’s all there is to tell. Bye for now!

I am so sorry I have been neglecting you. I haven’t written in a couple of days because I’ve been so tired lately. There’s just so much on my plate right now. At home, Phillise’s cheering is so intense. Her team is preparing for Nationals in January and the practice is really demanding. At school, we are going through WASC accreditation (Is that redundant?) and it’s a little stressful. I do not feel ready for it. I’ve been stressed out. As a result, my body is betraying me. As I write this, I have a heating pad on my back. This job is really taking all of my energy. So, I am going to get some rest and enjoy my downtime this weekend.

The only thing that’s bothering me is that I really wish I would have remembered to bring my umbrella home since Phillise is cheering for her team tomorrow morning @ 9:30 a.m. and there’s a possibility of rain. Hopefully it won’t rain. After the game’s done, I am going to do a little grocery shopping, a little cooking and call it a day! To add to that, I’m really tired and achy from exercise, so I am done for today. Bye for now!

1. ALL math is based on patterns.
2. The language of mathematics is spoken here. (Teach students the use of mathematics terms early.)
3. Math is filled with constants. (2 x 1 will always be 2 x 1)
4. There are no accidents in math.
5. Math is the pursuit of laziness. (Teach them the long way first. Once they get that, teach them the short cut.)
6. Mathematics teaches the power to persevere.

Finally,

• Know your stuff,
• Know who you’re stuffing,
• Stuff them elegantly

Now an acclaimed author whose autobiography All But My Life has been in print for 54 years, the subject of the Emmy and Academy Awards winning documentary One Survivor Remembers, an accomplished humanitarian, and the recipient of the Presidential Medal of Freedom, Gerda exemplifies the tenacity of the human spirit and the values the Museum was established to protect.

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I’ve never won one! The one, in question, is a student with a negative influence at home. I’ve never gotten one to change their negative thought pattern successfully. My dilemma is with one of my students, Binaca Blast. She’s VERY mean. She lies with no conscience or remorse and is just generally causing chaos in the class. I am exhausted. She is so much to handle. It’s almost to the point of being too much to handle. I have to admit that this is the first time that I have not been invested in a student’s well-being. If she changes fine, if not fine.

One thing I will say is that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. She is just like her mother. Her mother is one of the Parents from Hell who was giving me trouble. She was the main reason that I had to call the Emergency meeting.

So, my problem is that I am trying to reach her, but her behaviors are so deeply engrained because she sees the negativity and trouble making everyday from her mother. I don’t know how to motivate her to want to do right. What do I do?

You see, last year, when Ms. Loud Talker came into my class, late in the year (March), she didn’t talk at all. I seriously mean, not at all, for the first couple of hours. Her twin sister used to do all of the talking. Her mom later told me that she didn’t talk to her other teacher for the whole year. Are you reading what I’m writing? A whole year of not talking. So, I went to her and told her that I understood that she was shy, but that it was disrespectful to not talk to me. So, she slowly started talking to me within the week.

She tried not to though. She would send her twin sister up to me to ask for something, instead of asking for it herself. When her twin sister would come to me to ask for something for her, I would send her back to her seat and tell her to tell Ms. Loud Talker to come and ask me for herself. She would, but she would ask me so quietly that I would have to lean forward to hear her. It was almost to the point of her whispering in my ear. Now, fast forward to this year and she’s talking, not only to me, but all the students in the class. She is also now speaking up for herself. Can you believe that? I am so proud of her.

Fast forward again to Friday when I saw her test score. I almost cried…until I looked at the words. That’s when I noticed how close she was to the correct spelling. That’s when I cheered up. I knew right then and there what I was going to say to her to make her 2/20 seem like 20/20. I circled the one or two letters that were incorrect. I then wrote the correct spelling next to the incorrect word and pointed out how successful she ALMOST was.

So, I wrote/said all of that to say that she has made SUCH great progress. This is a synopsis of her success:

• Last year, she wouldn’t even attempt a word she didn’t know. Now, this year, she will struggle with it.
• Last year, she wouldn’t speak up for herself. This year, she does.
• Last year, she was reading 5 w.p.m. last year. Right now she is reading 19 w.p.m.
• Last year, she would NOT even attempt a spelling test. So I do not have a record of any spelling tests for her. The only thing I have is some of her writing that did not have a single word spelled correctly.

This is a copy of her Spelling test. Look at it for yourself and see why I’m so proud of her.

1. ounce    (correct)
2. sprowl   (sprawl)
3. launch   (correct)
4. loyowl     (loyal)
5. ouvode     (avoid)
6. foulter      (falter)
7. moust       (moist)
8. hount     (haunt)
9. scow         (scowl)
10. noutty     (naughty)
11. distowry   (destroy)
12. sowser      (saucer)
13. pownc       (pounce)
14. pousen      (poison)
15. Aowgest    (August)
16. owcshen    (auction)
17. rowyal   (royal)
18. cower     (coward)
19. owcwerd     (awkward)
20. anounce      (announce)

Last year she didn’t even try. Now, she reads with such confidence and fluency. Now, do you see why I’m celebrating 2/20 words correct!

Don Moody, creator of the three time Emmy™ Award-winning television series WordWorld is launching a new, free eBook library  available online now and on iTunes–for iPhone and iPad. WordWorld has been demonstrated by a U.S. Department of Education funded study to improve early literacy skills. WordWorld’s eBook library extends the learning lessons introduced in the television series.

The WordWorld eBook library consists of five dynamic educational WordWorld stories. Children may read the eBooks on their own, be read to by a caregiver or have stories read aloud to them by the eBook narrator. By clicking select words in each eBook, children build words and watch letters “morph” into WordFriends™. A Caregiver Guide accompanies the eBooks, providing caregivers and educators strategies to maximize the tool’s educational effectiveness. “Children and [the WordWorld] eBooks are a match made in educational heaven!” says Linda Labbo, Professor of Language and Literacy Education at the University of Georgia.

“Words come to life on screens in unique ways that invite children to interact with stories, characters, and language. The interactivity scaffolds children’s attention and provides age appropriate prompts that ensure an entertaining and educational experience.” The WordWorld eBook library supports the curriculum delivered through the WordWorld television series. It provides the groundwork upon which emergent readers can build early literacy skills. Each eBook promotes story comprehension, age-appropriate vocabulary, rhyming, print awareness, phonological sensitivity and letter knowledge.

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**WordWorld is partially funded by the U.S. Department of Education and is part of the Ready to Learn literacy initiative focused on helping children ages two to eight improve their reading skills. The Ready to Learn initiative is a partnership of the U.S. Department of Education, the Corporation of Public Broadcasting, PBS and the Ready to Learn Partnership.

The RAFTs Technique (Santa, 1988) is a system to help students understand their role as a writer, the audience they will address, the varied formats for writing, and the expected content. It is an acronym that stands for:

• Role of the Writer – Who are you as the writer? Are you Sir John A. Macdonald? A warrior? A homeless person? An auto mechanic? The endangered snail darter?
• Audience – To whom are you writing? Is your audience the Canadian people? A friend? Your teacher? Readers of a newspaper? A local bank?
• Format – What form will the writing take? Is it a letter? A classified ad? A speech? A poem?
• Topic + strong Verb – What’s the subject or the point of this piece? Is it to persuade a goddess to spare your life? To plead for a re-test? To call for stricter regulations on logging?

Almost all RAFTs writing assignments are written from a viewpoint different from the student’s, to another audience rather than the teacher, and in a form different from the ordinary theme. Therefore, students are encouraged to use creative thinking and response as they connect their imagination to newly learned information.

Here’s the direct link: R.A.F.T.

I Like Myself by Karen Beaumont. This book is a great self-esteem builder. Even though the title character is brown, the child you’re reading it to does not have to be.

How Full Is Your Bucket for Kids by Mary Reckmeyer and Maurie J. Manning. I read this one to introduce my students to the concept of bucket filling.

Alexander & the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day by Judith Viorst. We read this as a follow up to How Full Is Your Bucket. This book is the opposite of bucket filling. The title character, Alexander, is having such a bad day, that his bucket is dipped into and he is nearly empty by the end of the day. Once we read it, we discussed ways of filling up people’s buckets.

The last book that I read was The Hello, Goodbye Window by Norton Juster. I read this to introduce the students to different points of view and how important family & connections are- to let them know that I expect them to be a family.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM!

The teacher last year didn’t know how to handle him, so he ran over her with a MAC truck. He ran up one side and down the other. He knew that he couldn’t treat me like he treated her. When he came into my classroom, I laid down the law. I told him that I expected more of him and that I knew he could do more work than he did last year.

He respected my expectations as is evidenced from his progress (playing with other students) and attitude this year. I simply cannot believe the progress he’s made. If you knew him last year, then you would know that he is a completely different child. In a good way. I would love to say that he doesn’t have off-days where he produces absolutely no work. I would love to say that I’m so good that he did not test me, but that would not be the truth. He did test me on several occasions, but I stood firm, stuck to my rules, and did not budge one iota on my expectations of him. However, by and large, those days are anomalies. I am so proud of him and his progress.

“Miss, he played with us!”

I opened my mouth in shock. If you know how children on the autistic spectrum are, then you know how awesome that is that Coaster played with the other kids. Last year, he sat in his special spot and watched everyone else interact. This year, although I didn’t push him to play with the other students, I did push him to eat with them and work with them, to get a sense of family & belonging.

I knew that he’d come along, as far as working. I didn’t, however, expect him to play with them. I was seriously shocked by that. Again, I ask, “How’s that for progress?”

I am so proud of myself and how I am helping my students to realize their true inner selves.

EMERGENCY MEETING AGENDA 10/19

Purpose of the meeting is to clear the air, dispel rumors, & build bridges

• Storytime (Have You Filled a Bucket Today?)
• About Me (The time I didn’t defend myself)
• Classroom Operations
• Daily Schedule (attached)
• Professional courtesy & Screaming
• Purpose of homework
• Parent conferences

v     There is a sign-up sheet on back of the door.

v     Send a note

v     Call the school

• Monthly newsletter (Will begin in November)
• Blog (Under construction)
• Chain of command (child, Teacher, Principal)
• Building Bridges (How do we do that?)

DAILY SCHEDULE

Monday –             8:30- 9:00                        COMPUTER LAB-

Tuesday-             2:00- 2:55                          ART

Wednesday-      10:15- 11:00                       LIBRARY

Wednesday-      11:10- 11:55                        MUSIC

Thursday.-        10: 30- 11:30                       P.E.

Friday-                 8:30 – 9:00                       COMPUTER LAB

I am really fed up. I’ve had it up to here with all the parent complaints. Either I give the students too much homework or not enough. Or they say that I’m too strict. There is just no pleasing them. That is why I contacted my Room mom to have her call an emergency meeting to dispel all the rumors & gossiping. It will be today after school. I will post an update later. Until then.

She didn’t ask me, she asked the school secretary. Her response: No, he only told you off!

I was so proud as the Principal complimented me on the difference in Coaster’s behavior from last year to this year. It is a BIG difference. Last year, he pretty much did what he wanted to do. He’s missing his test scores from last year because he refused to take the test. On bi-weekly trips to the computer lab, he would refuse to leave the computer lab because he wanted to stay. He would not eat with the class. He would not line up with the class. He would not sit with the class. He did not do ANY classwork at all.

However, all that has changed this year. It was a struggle, I will not lie, but he did take the test this year (except one part), he does leave the computer lab when the rest of the class leaves, he does eat with the class, he does line up with the class, he does sit with the class. And (drum roll)…he does do classwork, even when they are working independently.

How’s that for progress?

This is the way the day actually went: I came home and laid on the couch. Why? I had to lie on the couch because my back was hurting. I ended up falling asleep on the couch without eating dinner. I woke up at 6:00 and b.s.’d around on the computer until 6:40-time to wake David & Phillise up. I then drove them to school. It was at this point that I realized I was dizzy and had a bit of a headache. That’s when I realize that I’m getting an ear infection. Really?

So, that’s the story of my day home sick. I was really home sick! Being sick on my planned hooky day sucked, but at least I got some rest!

Yesterday I attended a fantastic, out of this world math training hosted by Kim Sutton, a retired elementary school teacher from Arcata, California. It was so nice that I, and other participants, did not want to leave. It was really the best training ever. I’ll write more at a later date. Bye for now!

Since I’ve been a shopping fool at Talbots lately, I was emailed information regarding Talbots Charitable Foundation for women pursuing a scholarship later in life. I sure wish I would have seen this when I returned to school: www.talbotsscholarship.com (This is not the address of the link, I simply put this one because it’s easier on the eye than the actual link)

In keeping with our tradition of serving the community, the Talbots Charitable Foundation is proud to offer the 2012 Talbots Scholarship Program for women pursuing a college degree later in life.

Here’s information straight from the website:

Since its inception in 1997, the program has awarded more than $1 million dollars in scholarships. This year, the Talbots Scholarship Program will award $200,000 in scholarships for the 2012 academic year, including seventeen $10,000 scholarships. It will also present the $30,000 Nancy Talbot Scholarship Award, named in honor of the founder of Talbots and granted to one extraordinary finalist who demonstrates courage, conviction and an insatiable entrepreneurial spirit.

“The secret in education lies in respecting the student.” — Ralph Waldo Emerson

So, since I can have a sense of humor about testing (Since I don’t have to do it) I found this and thought it was too cute to pass up.

Is this or is this not TRUE???

I have been so busy this week. I have barely had a chance to sit down and think, let alone write. But, this is what I love to do, so I will make sure that I make time. When I don’t write, I feel like I’m holding it all in. That’s when I explode, like I did with MFH. You know what, I feel bad. She and I both said some pretty rude things to each other. I don’t know or care if she feels remorse on her part, I just know that I feel remorse on mine. But, I don’t have to worry about her anymore because she took her daughter and left. I just need to worry about myself and my response to any given situation.

At the time (that she was harassing me) I wanted to tell her everything about herself that I disliked (and I did), how she made other people feel like less than nothing, and I just plain wanted to get her off my back. Although she had a right to have mini-conferences with me regarding her daughter’s progress, they bordered on harassment. I understood that she was concerned for her only child’s welfare. But…EVERYDAY was a complaint. I felt that I couldn’t take anymore and cracked. I felt so bad afterward because I let her crack me. When I came home and had time to think about my response to her, I decided that I would get help for myself so that I wouldn’t let anyone take me there again. No matter how rude they are.

I am learning anger management techniques that I am also teaching to Phillise and my students. I think they will benefit greatly from the techniques. If they learn them now, they will not be frustrated at 41 years old trying to learn them.

So, even though you can’t read this, I would like to say, “Thank you, Mom from Hell. Even though you don’t know it, you have been instrumental in helping me become a better person.”

Thanks to her, I have decided to get help with my anger management. Thank you MFH!

The title says it all. Do I really need to repeat it? The title says it all. Yes, she is at it again. Even though she removed her daughter from the school and is now out of my life, she is still present and trying to wreak havoc. But, as I said already, I will not let her steal my peace. Not again. She has gone straight to the head person in charge. I just finished writing a 4-page response to an email she sent to the head person n charge. I tell you, this woman is not happy unless she is making someone else unhappy. But, she can play that game by herself.

I will speak to the head person in charge when she schedules an appointment. Until then, I will keep my cool. If I get fired over this, I just get fired. I feel as if my reputation should speak for itself. If it doesn’t, then it doesn’t. It will be a repeat of my last job all over again. I just don’t know what to say or do!!! For now, I am hopefully and prayerfully waiting. Bye for now!

I have to say that I was wrong for arguing with MFH in front of her child. I didn’t mean for it to escalate, but it did. NO EXCUSES!!! So, today I apologized to India. I didn’t want her to think that I hated her or her mom. I told her that I am sorry for what happened with her mother and that I still liked her- that nothing changed between us.

She said, “Thank you Miss,” and gave me a hug.

I should have been more mindful of her presence. That is one thing that I hate about myself. I hate to get as mad as I did yesterday, because it is hard for me to calm down. Yesterday was inspiring for me though. It inspired me to get back to the way I used to be when I spoke up for myself. It also inspired me to seek an anger management treatment program. I did NOT like me yesterday. Although everything I told MFH about herself was true, they were mean. I don’t want anyone to take me to that point.

If you’ve been reading this blog, you’ve probably noted that theme repeated. You’ve probably also noted that I HAVE allowed myself to get to the point where I don’t care about anyone’s feelings. So, as of today, I take responsibility for my actions. I challenge myself to find an anger management treatment center. AS OF TODAY, I CHALLENGE MYSELF TO DO BETTER!