Aaah, sunrise! My favorite time of day. Everything is so fresh and undisturbed. There’s not as much noise. There are less cars driving by; everything is so still. The day is filled with such great possibilities. Whenever I’ve been through hard times, I have been up at the crack of dawn watching the sun rise. Consequently, whenever I am going through one of the best times in my life, I am up at the crack of dawn to watch the sun rise.
It’s funny how some things never change.The sun has always been a source of such great contradiction to me. I don’t know if that’s the right word, but I can’t think of the right word that I want to say right now.
- The SON, as in, the father, SON, & Holy Ghost.
- Beautiful beginnings, therefore possibilities. Many, many possibilities.
- A light that I didn’t want to shine (depression) and my avoidance of it.
During the times in my life when I was depressed, I hated the sun because I didn’t see all the possibilities that I saw when I wasn’t depressed. I would literally hide from the sun/Son, in more ways than one.
This all tied into my depression. When I was depressed, of course it spilled over into other areas of my life. Especially my clothing choices. A little while ago my favorite color was black because it gave me a chance to hide. That is until I met Paula, an older lady at my job in 2004. She does not to this day remember telling me this. She took a look at me and said, “Baby, you’re pretty, but you’re hiding it.” You need to wear some colors to brighten up your face. You look dead.”
After that time, I started, little by little, buying bright colors that accentuated my brown skin; pinks, yellows, oranges, greens. I wanted my outside to reflect my newly burgeoning inside. I no longer felt that turmoil that I used to feel about feeling happy.
Once I stopped hiding from the sun, I stopped hiding from the Son. It’s so ironic that almost everything has double meaning. I am on the sunny side now with no plans to go back to the “dark side.”
Once I was no longer depressed, I could see all the many possibilities and opportunities that life had to offer. Right after that, I started getting things in order so that I could go back to school to finish my degree to become a teacher. That is when I started to see that my light could shine because I no longer hid it because I wasn’t depressed and could see the brighter side of life with it’s many possibilities and opportunities that it had to offer. Everything always seems to come together. It reminds me of Romans 8:28, “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”
What light are you hiding? Are you letting your light shine? Or are you hiding from the sun/Son? Think about it!
Until next time people!