What I Want Doesn’t Exist!

I have discovered, much to my chagrin, that what I want either does not exist or I just haven’t found it yet. I am talking about my perfect, ideal job. My perfect, ideal job would be one that would:

• allow me the freedom that I desire, which means not having to be at work every single day.
• Random days would be nice.
• I would like to start later than 9:00 a.m.
• I would like to get paid twice what I get paid now.
• It would provide great health benefits.
• I would still get long, paid vacations.

Now, do you see why I say that it doesn’t exist.

Until next time!

Getting Better

I have been so sick. I wish that I had another job where I was free to miss work and not be penalized (by the children). I’m not sure if I wrote about when I passsed out at work because of my vertigo. If I didn’t here it is. I left work on a Thursday because I was dizzy. I went to the doctor and got that next day off. I came back on Tuesday, passed out and stayed out until Thursday.

When I returned, the children were so concerned about me. They were also mad at me. They asked me why I missed so many days.

“Guys, I was sick”, I said defending myself.

They didn’t really understand. They started acting out again. I had to stop the class and tell them that I understand that they were upset because they thought that I abandoned them, but that that wasn’t the case. I told them that I was sick and couldn’t be any good to them the way I was; that I had to take care of myself.

It still took about a week to get them back in line, but I did. Anyway, I had to say all that to say that I wish I could miss work tomorrow, but I know that I can’t because the kids will take it personally.

I am at like 80%. I can’t wait until I’m back at 100%. Until next time people!

7 Random & Weird Things About Me

I’ve been tagged by Chris @ soupornuts.com to tell 7 random and/or weird things about me. There are so many weird things about me that I don’t even know where to begin.

1. I never fit in anywhere. I am such an oddball. No matter where I’m at, I stick out like a sore thumb. I hated it when I was younger. Now that I’m older, it still bothers me, but I’ve gotten used to it.
2. I have the oddest offbeat sense of humor of anyone I know. One time, a friend of mine was trying to explain a type of Mexican food she’d eaten and she didn’t know what it was called. I asked her was it like a taco or a burrito. “It was definitely burritoish”, she said. I think we had a good 10 minute laugh over that. Nobody else understood it. My husband & children thought we were crazy, but it didn’t matter, we had a great laugh.
3. I’ve been with my husband for 19 years, but have only been married for 10 of those years.
4. I sometimes worry that I’m not the best teacher I could be because of #’s 5-7.
5. I think that I have the equivalent of adult ADD. I say this because even though I love what I’m doing now, I know that I will not be doing this forever. I want to be a studio teacher or something so I can move around. I hate being in one place for too long. I feel like I’m suffocating.
6. Piggybacking off of #5: Before becoming a teacher, I subbed for L.A.U.S.D. for 6 1/2 years so I could quit at any time. I did not want to be tied down. I liked the freedom of being able to leave a job at anytime.
7. I feel trapped in my current job. It’s nice, but I feel trapped since I have to be there everyday, all day. It’s so much pressure. If I could quit without penalty, I would.