I’m thinking aloud to myself. Because if it is, I want to quit. One of my students who came in the middle of the year, who everyone knew as bad, changed when he came into my room. He always misbehaved a little, but we had an understanding. The saving grace for him was his attitude towards adults. Even though he’s “bad”, he and his brother are very respectful of adults.
My new student is “bad”, as well as four others whose behaviors are so ridiculous that I spend most of my time disciplining. The difference between my formerly “bad” student and the other four “bad” ones is their disrespect. They are so disrespectful. They don’t seem to know what the word respect means.
I just don’t know if I can spend the rest of my teaching career like this. It is too intense, not to mention the work. The work, oh my goodness, the work is mindblowingly overwhelming. I thought that my lack of preparedness last year had to do with my having had no formal training (whatsoever) before going into the classroom. However, I had the pleasure of attending a special ed training for OCR back in May that was so informative.
I thought that once I received the training it would be easy to implement. Why did I think that? I have since found out that it is not so easy to translate the ideas I have into a working model. I have been praying as well as looking for ways to make my instruction better. Well, my prayers were answered when I went in to school to take care of a few things. My Principal spoke with me about a program through UTLA, that’s especially for new teachers, that sends retired, more experienced teachers into the classroom to help new teachers.
I wish I would have known about this program last year. That is why I am writing about it now. As I get more info I will disseminate it to you, my faithful readers. Until then, here’s to continued success!