Am I Cut Out For This?

Am I cut out for this? I have been asking myself this all this week because I really did not want to go back to work. I have been talking to myself and trying to tell myself that I can do this, but I just don’t believe it. Yesterday I broke. I mean mentally. I looked at one of my students who’s in 2nd grade and felt like crying.

“Three more years,” I thought. I have to deal with his crap for three more years. I can’t. It is simply too much to deal with. I have to say that the rest of my class is okay. Yes, some of them still have behavior problems, but not as severe as this kid.

I went on a field trip today and had to leave him behind because I didn’t have a signed trip slip for him. Let me just say that the whole school noticed. Everyone got a chance to see what I deal with on a daily basis.

I just can’t see dealing with him for three more years. He really makes me ready to move on. I will, too, if I have to deal with him for the next three years. It is simply not worth my sanity.

If I am one of the unlucky few who get laid off because of the budget cuts, I’ll know that it’s time to move on. I am one of those people who looks for signs. Boy, getting laid off would be the biggest sign; As big as the Hollywood sign.