The Quickening vs. Awakening

I am experiencing an awakening of sorts. I don’t know exactly what’s going on. What I do know is that I’m changing. In what capacity, I don’t know. Let me begin by telling you about what happened to me a couple of years ago when I first started teaching. I was so overwhelmed. By the time I finally got the chance to sit down & process the information in the summer, I was on information overload. With all of that information, came the realization that I needed to do something with all of it. I had to assimilate it all before I went crazy. It wasn’t easy, but I did eventually manage to do just that. It was something akin to The Quickening.

Now, I’m experiencing a new sensation. I’d call it an awakening or The Great Awakening, if you will. I’m awakening to the possibilities of life. There are sooooo many. Now that I been delivered from my great battle with depression, I can see. I feel like singing…I can see clearly now the rain has gone. I can see all obstacles in my way. That is the perfect song for me right now because being in the fog, called depression, feels the exact opposite of the lyrics to that song. Unless you have battled depression, you cannot possibly begin to understand how it feels. It saps you of your energy, robs you of your hopes & dreams, and much, much more. In the beginning, I resorted to escapism. I’d watch a lot of t.v., retail therapy (shopping), or whatever else provided a break from reality. Towards the end, at my worse, when everything seemed hopeless, I wanted to commit suicide. I very nearly gave up.

However, I have had enough of talking about that. All of the negativity, hopelessness, & suicidal thoughts are water under a very tired bridge. I had to get tired of being tired. Once I got tired, I did something about it. First and foremost, I prayed. I also started exercising. Lastly, I researched different cures, both natural & traditional. I became very determined to beat “this thing.”

My whole point is that I have awakened to the possibilities of life. When I experienced the effects of the Quickening, I was inundated with information. Having information & knowing what to do with it are two different things. Information is no good until it’s put to use. Think about it!

HERE’S TO 2010!

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