For as long as I can remember, I’ve listened to really sad songs. I think it was because I was afraid to be happy. I didn’t even realize they were really sad until one of my students told me that the song that I loved was really depressing. Depressing?!?! Until then I didn’t connect the two.
After she said that, I started paying attention to my song choices. Sure enough, they were mostly sad and depressing. Almost all of them.
Do you think I changed my playlist then? Nope, I didn’t. Wanna’ know why! I hadn’t changed my way of thinking. Until now!
A couple of months ago, I attended an event through L.A.U.S.D. with Siedah Garrett (writer of Michael Jackson’s “Man in the Mirror” & “I Just Can’t Stop Loving You”) as one of the featured performers. She told the story of how she came to write the song, “Answer’s Always Love”.
I know that I keep using this phrase, but I vibed with her explanation and her song so much. I paid full attention to the song as she sang. I was mesmerized. Right then and there, I decided to change my playlist to suit my changed mindset.
As an added bonus, here’s a poem I wrote in my upcoming book of poetry. Like to hear it, hear it goes:
I Changed My Playlist My playlist, once so full of sad songs used to depress me. But those songs do not represent me or my way of thinking anymore. My way of looking at things shifted. I’m no longer sad, bitter, hurt, or afraid. While Keyshia Cole’s “Let It Go” And Mary J. Blige’s “Not Gon’ Cry” used to be on repeat, Now, the lyrics to Frankie Beverly’s “We Are One” and Siedah Garrett’s “The Answer’s Always Love!” Speaks to me. Of necessity, I chose to limit my exposure to songs that kept me angry, bitter, hurt, & afraid. While listening to sad songs. I was perpetually in an unproductive state of mind that did not serve my desire to move forward and heal. When your mindset shifts and you’re ready to move on and become a better you, the way out can be as simple as changing your playlist! © Original poetry by Carole L. Banks